I'm now at the stage where I'll begin guiding others in my forestry work. I know I started this side gig with the notion of helping people tap in and write from their center. But...eeek! I feel sort of odd telling people about it thus far, and I've been calling it my "forestry work" because I haven't had the words to really describe it to my peers in business. Perhaps because I'm a bit afraid to really say what it is. Much of this is heart-centered work. The stuff I'm really into anyway. After all, what do I have to take with me when I pass anyway? So, as I get closer to this edge, I realize that this is sort of "coming-out" for me.
People have often desribed me as a bit of a mystery, and I've often used this to my advantage in getting any kind of work done, especially when I have my business "hat" on. But this type of training has put me squarely back in the spot where I was when I was in graduate school. Writing my thoughts and visions down. You know, the things that might get you locked up in the ward. It's nothing crazy really, if I've always experienced it I guess, but to others, getting in touch with your feelings and intuition can seem quite radical, and threatening.
We are trained from such an early age to fit into a tamed model of the world, and I've always been saddened by the loss of what potential we're all pobably missing. So, as a person who has a repsectable position in the real world, and someone who's expected to carry the mantle of a family business forward, yeah, you could say this is a little scary for me...this process of guiding people in the forest...this work of helping people to write it out, to think it out. To say what they actually want.
I do want to offer my work to both the individual and corporate world. Because I don't see any progression of humanity on this rock unless we learn how to deeply connect with nature. No, to remember nature. After all, it is nature who is the target of our current business model, is it not? Infinite production in a finite world? Conquest? Consolidation? Don't laugh, how many times have you checked your Facebook today? How many times have you asked yourself if you had enough money to live "comfortably" but you're afraid to acnkowledge that all you ahve is now? We all know it a bunch of crap, but we're all super scared to first acknowledge it, and then do anything about it. So we find ways to distract ourselves. Everyone does it. I do it.
Because there is no model forward, and what has been presented up until this time through art and science has been simply squashed as nutsoid. Heresy. In the hauting words of Thomas the Tank Engine...how effective are we at becomming useful? And so, this divorce, so to speak of my usefulness from my desire, which is not a bad thing people - it's simply a human animus - is what will be scary at first. But less so, with practice.